Fear and rejection
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Fear and distance
The unpleasant feeling of rejection
The continuation of rejection
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Extreme fear
Distancing of strangers
Distancing of colleagues
Distancing of hospital personnel
Feeling distant from family members
Feeling rejected by colleagues
Fear and hope of those around you
Rejection of rural laborers
Continuation of fear and distancing among colleagues
Continuation of fear among friends
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In the first wave, people had extreme fear and stress about COVID-19 and
assumed that whoever acquired it would die. Everyone distanced
themselves from me as soon as my test returned positive. I told a woman
on the bus that I might be afflicted, and she immediately pulled herself
away from me. I saw my colleagues moving away from me in the dressing
room as if I was dirty. I went to a general hospital and as soon as I
said that I might be afflicted, the nurses ordered me to leave and visit
a COVID-19 hospital.
You feel like you have to leave since your family is afraid of you.
It’s a unique feeling; you realize you have to distance yourself.
You feel like they are afraid of you yet they also want to help you.
Their view was that rural workers who commute from their homes should
not enter the factory.
I returned to the hospital after 21 days, but everyone was still moving
away from me.
Even now that a year has passed, I jokingly or seriously tell any of my
colleagues who go on trips across cities that I wish they had not
returned immediately to work; we are still really scared.
I returned to work after two weeks, but I saw that my colleagues would
become scared when they came near to me, and this was not
pleasant.
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Discrimination
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Occupational
Familial
Social
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Loss of employment; forced leave; fear of getting fired.
Neglection of the patient, indifference, and/or discrimination by the
family,
Verbal indifference, social distance, and physical distance,
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I went for a job interview. The
employer asked me to pull my mask down. I said that I am suspicious
[for COVID-19]. He asked what I was doing there!
The employer would immediately send those who were suspicious on leave.
The workers were afraid even to cough.
Nobody paid attention to me; I took care of myself.
The family did not say anything but I felt they were paying more
attention to other members.
When I got sick, my family left me and went to their village, but they
called me and said that I should not leave the room at all. Even my
mother would not let me out of the room, and I was coughing very badly
and was short of breath. I was constantly in tears because of their
behavior.
In the factory, people who have passed the disease course are ignored.
The expectation is that we should never come back to the workplace. We
are ignored and others distance themselves from us.
On the bus, I told a lady to keep her distance because I was suspicious.
After my affliction, I saw our neighbors pass by us very quickly while
ignoring us.
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Loneliness
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Loss of psychosocial support
Self-disgust
Loneliness
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Feeling forgotten
Distancing of the closest relatives
Feeling bad
Feeling danger from the disease
Feeling dirty
Lack of establishing communications
Feeling lonely
Experiencing the reality of loneliness
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I felt that everything about love and affection was lies and I felt
severely left out.
Not even my brother came to visit me.
It’s an unpleasant feeling – as if you have HIV or plague. I said: “do
I have leprosy?!”
Among the workers, if someone tested positive it was like they had
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I felt dirty; it gave me a very bad feeling
You see that you cannot have a relationship with anyone
We were quarantined and felt introverted and lonely
My sister called and told me not to leave my room
It was very difficult to be alone and away from my wife and children.
During the quarantine, you are completely lonely and all you have is
your thoughts and imagination.
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